Showing posts with label CBT. Show all posts
Showing posts with label CBT. Show all posts

Sunday, 10 August 2025

Reflections

 

Now that I’m back in the Dojo, it seems like a good time to reflect on the art I’ve chosen to learn.

I began training in Karate in 2018, initially to support my son — but it quickly became more than just a shared activity. The physical discipline came highly recommended by my doctor, especially given my heart condition and later diagnosis of COPD. But it was the suggested depth of history behind Karate that appealed to the nerd in me.

Training continued steadily until 2020, when COVID hit and separated me from the physical dojo. Online training filled the gap, and unexpectedly opened doors I’d never imagined. I had the privilege of learning from Brian Bates, Paul Broomfield (PJ Broomy), Les Bubka, Jamie Chubb, Tuari Dawson, and Chris Hanson — with seminars by Noah Legel, Christian Wedewardt, Patrick McCarthy, and Andreas Quast. Under normal circumstances, I’d never have accessed such a diverse range of instructors.

In early 2022, as most returned to their dojos, my family and I remained cautious. My wife was also on the “at risk” list, and the idea of enclosed spaces without masks — or crowded trains at rush hour — felt impossible. Returning wasn’t an option.

Still, I didn’t stop. I trained online with PJ, who had become a close friend, and continued learning from Don Came and Russ Smith. My practice became more eclectic, as reflected in my blogs. Then came the crunch: in late 2022, my company announced a return to office work. The thought of commuting triggered what used to be called a “nervous breakdown.”

Thankfully, my employer acknowledged the mental health impact and arranged for me to continue working from home. Emotionally, I turned to an online CBT course — and found surprising parallels with Karate. PJ described it as Shu-Ha-Ri — the process of making the art your own. What follows is a reflection on the physical and historical connections that shaped that journey.

The Physical Journey

Shorin-Ryu — My Chosen Starting Point

When my son began practising Shorin-Ryu Karate, I joined him — encouraged by my doctor to pursue exercise tailored to my heart condition. The style’s core kata, Naihanchi Shodan, became my entry point. I informed the instructors of my limitations and never looked back.

Cardio Vascular Naihanchi — Robey Jenkins

Through a mentoring scheme on Facebook, I worked with Robey Jenkins to adapt Naihanchi Shodan into a slow, Tai Chi–inspired kata. It became a gentle but focused form of cardio, reinforced by insights from my sister, a former Judoka turned Tai Chi practitioner. We refined stretches and punches, improving hip rotation and arm alignment — addressing my “chicken winged” style and supporting posture and conditioning.

Breathing Through Tensho — Noah Legel

Later, I explored breathwork with Noah Legel, using Tensho to manage a lingering chest infection. We focused on:

• Six-second diaphragmatic breathing cycles to build control and rhythm

• Matching breath to movement, following the internal patterns of Tensho, with deliberate exhalation from the diaphragm

I began with short step sequences, gradually building toward fuller kata practice. The result was transformative. I could train without wheezing, and the breathing routine remains part of my practice today.

Mokuso and the Addition of Sanchin — Paul Broomfield

Mokuso — the quiet ritual of clearing the mind before training — resonated deeply with CBT’s emphasis on mindfulness and breath control. I began combining CBT techniques with kata, choosing three:

• Naihanchi Shodan for mindfulness

• Sanchin for tensioning

• Tensho for breathing and relaxation

Each kata took on new meaning. PJ helped refine my Sanchin, adapting it to my physical needs. Tensho was later enhanced by Les Bubka, adding a layer of relaxation. When I shared the full CBT kata sequence with PJ, he saw how each form supported both physical and mental alignment — and even applied the method in his own dojo.

Rooted in History – Scott Mertz

During one of our sessions, PJ noted that my practice was rooted in Karate’s three core kata. I hadn’t set out with that intention, but it prompted me to revisit the history — and I found something striking.

Karate came into being at a landmark meeting on October 25, 1936, attended by Hanashiro Chomo, Kyan Chotoku, Motobu Choki, Miyagi Chojun, Kyoda Juhatsu, Chibana Choshin, Gusukuma Shinpan, Oroku Chotei, and Nakasone Genwa.

The meeting is best known for formally adopting the name Karate (空手), meaning “Empty Hand,” replacing older terms like Toudi, Tode, Tii, and Te. But the discussions went far deeper.

Three kata were presented as foundational: Naihanchi, Sanchin, and Tensho. There was a clear desire to preserve tradition while encouraging innovation — especially to support Karate’s spread through schools and universities. Uniform standards were proposed, and Furukawa Gizaburo even introduced the concept of sports Karate, suggesting that competitive, educational, and traditional strands were all considered from the outset.

The meeting also revealed how secretive Karate practice had been, with some Masters unaware of each other’s methods. It’s a glimpse into the fragmented, often hidden paths that shaped early Karate — and makes you wonder what else was shared behind closed doors.

Thanks to Scott Mertz and his article on Karate Day, on which these observations are based.

Closing Reflections

Looking back, my journey has been shaped by both necessity and curiosity — by health challenges, historical inquiry, and the quiet persistence of practice. What began as a way to support my son and manage my condition has grown into something layered and personal. The three kata — Naihanchi, Sanchin, and Tensho — have become more than forms. They are anchors. They connect me to tradition, to recovery, to breath, and to the resilience that carried me through isolation and fear. And now, back in the Dojo, they continue to guide me — not just in movement, but in meaning.

Wednesday, 16 July 2025

Beyond the Dojo - Finding Clarity in Practice

 


Several years ago, I was diagnosed with a hereditary heart condition. Rather than give in to it, I chose to take action. At the time, my son was practising Karate, so I asked my doctor whether joining him might be beneficial. His advice was simple: go for it, but let the instructors know about any limitations. I did just that, and I’ve never looked back.

To support others facing similar health challenges, I began blogging about my journey and how Karate was helping me. Then, during a heart stress test, I was diagnosed with COPD — the result of many years spent smoking. I checked with my doctor once again, and he confirmed that Karate could aid with that too. So I continued, not only to improve my wellbeing but also to share quality time with my son. Naturally, I broadened the scope of the blog to include this new aspect.

Then came COVID. With two co-morbidities, I was classified as high-risk and required to work from home throughout the pandemic. Fortunately, my Dojo embraced modern tech and offered online lessons via Zoom — unlike many others. For two years, those sessions became a cornerstone of my home/work balance.

When restrictions lifted and I was expected to return to office work in the City, everything unravelled.

I suffered a breakdown at the prospect (having already been on medication for stress-related anxiety) and experienced suicidal thoughts.

I was prescribed stronger medication and referred for a course of online CBT. The concept of mindfulness in CBT immediately reminded me of "Mokuso" in Karate — the practice of clearing the mind. I worked that into my personal routine, combining awareness, controlled breathing, and the tension–release cycle. I documented it all in my blog, hoping it might help someone else, just as it helped me.

That shift got me over the mental hump, and I was offered a work-from-home role with my company. My condition was acknowledged as bordering on a disability by both my doctor and occupational health. Though my fear of travel and meeting strangers remains, Karate has remained a steady anchor.

When I was made redundant, I leaned hard on my Karate routine — especially to clear my head and decide on next steps. Ironically, I’ve always been willing (albeit uncomfortable) to travel familiar routes at off-peak times when needed.

In February, while contesting the redundancy, my 79-year-old sister in Sussex needed help. I took a train to see her — but at Upminster, a gang of suited teenagers boarded and surrounded my table. I nearly panicked. Yet thanks to Mokuso and CBT, I kept my composure. Controlled breathing got me through as they loudly bragged about assaults and unpaid gambling debts.

A week after returning from Sussex, I caught COVID — vindicating my fears about travel and exposure. Unfortunately, so did the rest of my family. 😞

That said, it passed within a week. I had the mildest symptoms thanks to being fully vaccinated. Now, the fear of COVID has eased for all of us, and we can venture out again. My fear of travel and strangers persists — but what’s top of the agenda? Returning to the Dojo with my now 18-year-old son, reconnecting with old friends, and rediscovering the life we once knew.

I’ve also resolved to blog consistently again — sharing how a strong, healthy focus can steady the mind and support you through the hardest of times.

Thank you for reading this far.

REY
16-07-2025

Tuesday, 16 May 2023

Mindfulness, Tensioning, Breathing and Relaxing (with PJ Broomy)



I have a friend in Australia, Paul Broomall (aka PJ Broomy), who during Covid was one of the online teachers who helped out with Guest Lessons, along with Les Bubka amongst many others. due to some similarities in health conditions, and it seems outlook on life, we became friends, and we have continued to work together online since then. However, last winter and our own personal circumstances since then, we only managed to arrange our first online session together for 14th of May. PJ kindly consented to become the first victim to try out the CBT kata I have been using for the last 18 months or so, so I was both somewhat excited and worried by showing had been doing it and the reasoning behind it.

To recap, that kata in question are Naihanchi (or Tekki) Shodan, Sanchin and Tensho. The principles of CBT being worked on are Mindfulness, Tensioning, Relaxation and Breathing.

 Naihanchi (Tekki) Shodan I use for mindfulness, which in CBT is feeling every part of your body, both statically and when in motion. The kata is done at whatever speed you feel comfortable with at the time, but ensuring that you concentrate on how your body is moving and where you end up. It doesn't need to be the perfect kata, neither do any of the three.

The second kata is Sanchin, which I use for Tensioning. This one is PJs, though a variation on the way he does it. He showed me the version where by turning your wrists you can tension your arms to rigidity. I do the same with my legs (I think this picked up in a seminar from Okinawa online, where rooting your feet was said to be important). Sanchin as used by Goju Ryu seems to be used extensively for this, so seemed a natural choice.

The third kata is Tensho, for Relaxation and Breathing. Originally, I was taught Tensho as a breathing kata by Noah Legel, to help with my COPD. Then Les Bubka showed me how it could be used for relaxation (Teisho). Combining the two seemed the perfect choice for what I wanted to achieve. There are two versions that I do, one for full space and one for limited space. The latter in arm kata only. However, both work the same for me.

In short, by the third set of hand movements in Tensho, my breathing is comfortably in synch with the arm movements, I find myself feeling relaxed and with a clear mind. PJ seemed to enjoy the exercise.....

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PJ Broomy's view of what we went through: "A very interesting way of practicing kata. Naihanchi with a focus on mindfulness, Sanchin on muscular tension and Tensho for relaxation. There is no rule saying each kata must be done a particular way. To the contrary our Okinawan masters have been documented encouraging us to make karate our own. Bob is doing this and getting more and more out karate as a result.

Recently we applied Bob’s method to these three core kata in the dojo. Focusing on where the body was in time and space during Naihanchi not only gave the kata another dimension but lead to some very effective bunkai/oyo latter in the class.


Sanchin is known for tension however we focused on proper spine alignment when applying that muscular tension. This also helped induce some fatigue that assisted with the transition into Tensho. Tensho was performed in a more relaxed manner with a distinct focus on breathing. This is a great way to round out what is an excellent routine for any karateka to do."

 

As this was the first time I had actually shown someone else, and they did it for the first time themselves (I had no idea he got his dojo to try it out later), I thought it worthwhile sharing the results. Hope some of you might find it of interest. REY/PJB 16/05/2023






Sunday, 22 January 2023

Shu Ha Ri


 Events towards the end of last year disheartened me somewhat, and as a result I felt little inclination to post blogs or record videos.  However, I never gave up doing the core that I use for my own purposes (relaxation, clearing the mind and breathing).  As a part of my New Year's resolution, I decided to get back to doing what I enjoy and start increasing the amount of training I do to start getting back to a healthy level of fitness.

In the first instance, I intend to do this by increasing the amount I do based around my core kata.  For those of you that are perhaps reading for the first time, these consist of Naihanchi, Sanchin and Tensho, based on the work I did for CBT to improve my mental health.

Naihanchi - (mostly Shodan, but as I increase the amount of work I do, intend to extend to Nidan and perhaps Sandan, though this isn't one of the kata I formally learned at my original dojo).  This I use for body awareness, how my body moves and the positioning of body elements during the execution of the kata.

Sanchin for body tensioning.

Tensho for deep breathing in a relaxed manner.

What persuaded me to do this was a friend who said that although still I was a novice, my use of kata for these specific purposes was something I had made my own.  As he termed it,  Shu Ha Ri, which I take as a pretty big compliment.  I still have so much to learn, and know that to advance my knowledge in a practical way, I need to return to the dojo.  Family circumstances still preclude this just now, but it is what I aim for.

In the mean-time, that somebody I respect tells me what I have done is of merit is enough for me.

REY 22/01/2023



Wednesday, 30 March 2022

The Waiting Game

 

One of the most stressful experiences at any point in your life is the waiting game. However, it seemed more tense this time round than on any previous occasion.   Being removed from your post as a result of an adverse mental health experience doesn't help, even when the company the employs you assure you of their good intentions, especially at the age of 61 with a family.

Working in the Security Industry meant at this time were always going to be delays due to the prevailing circumstances.  However, even being aware of the circumstances doesn't help lessen the tension.  The only way I found through this was to focus on one thing at a time, keep up my CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy) routine and try to find things to distract.

There are many issues which I need to resolve, but 90% of them require some solid basis on which to plan, which is precisely what I haven't had.  These were the hardest to put to one side, but it was a must as dwelling on them would have done me no good.  I found out about what my employer had in mind round about mid February, but it has taken until now for this to really feel concrete.  I begin work officially in my new role on the 1st of April coming, practically on the 4th of April.

In the time spent waiting, I have started practicing the frame works for 4 of the 5 Pinan kata (this is going back to December, when I was originally signed as fit to returned to work in a controlled manner) and started on a couple of kata with Sai.  Now I'm starting to build up my personal practice time, as I haven't made it back to the dojo yet due to family and health considerations.  But the Waiting Game is almost over, and hopefully I can start to slowly start pulling the pieces together and getting some things in life back on track.  

I want to say a big "Thank You" to my Sensei, family and friends for their support during this time.

REY 26/03/2022


Thursday, 17 February 2022

Living with the Consequences


A while back I wrote a blog titled "Suicidal Thoughts", based on the issues that caused me to contemplate suicide.  This is the follow up.

As as result of my speaking to the doctor, I was signed off work and undertook a course of Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT) to help we work through the issues that had put me in such a position.   This was backed up by counselling through a service provided by my employer.  Basically it was a mix of financial worries, the worries caused by COVID-19 and my co-morbidities and family issues that had been there since the start of COVID.  In part I had turned to alcohol as a part of my coping mechanism, which had made things worse.

Working through the course persuaded me that I needed to drastically cut down my intake, and also to evaluate my feelings before reacting to situations.  The reduction in alcohol intake stays in effect to this day, an I believe for the most part I now react in a more reasoned and reasonable manner to most situations.  I also have to keep working at dealing with each situation independently, rather than dwelling too long on the "what ifs" of different combinations of things.

My progress was such that I was signed as fit to return to work with specific provisions, just before Christmas.   The approach was agreed by both my own doctor and my company's Occupational Health Consultant, but could not be discussed by my company or contractual employers until the new year, due to the holiday period.  So Christmas and New Year came and went, an I was hoping for a reasonably quick response.  Since the trigger for my thoughts had been the fear of using public transport, the provisions were based around a phased return to work, firstly working from home then gradually starting to return to the office one, two then three days a week before returning there full time.

The role I held on the contract was one which did require me to be in the office when fully occupied, but I had successfully carried out the main duties from home for the vast majority of the COVID period.   Therefore I was hopeful that the approach would be accepted.   However, as time went by with no official word other than that my manager on the contract had to hand the situation over to his manager, as he was extremely busy, January passed by without any word, and the doubts began to set in.

The focal point for each day became my exercises for bringing myself into the "now", combined with breathing and relaxation.   These as I had previously mentioned in "Kata and CBT" I had worked in with my Karate practice, as meditation forms a part of the routine for that discipline as well, at least the concept of "Mokuso" or empty mind.  I also spent part of the time learning new kata, courtesy of Videos from Noah Legel.  That, and doing some of the tasks that had been outstanding for a while.

There were other trials and tribulations along the way, but it obviously began to sink in that things were very likely not going to be as they were before.   This in turn brought new worries, which began to take a hold to some extent.  Battling these became added to the other issues I had already outlined to deal with, but the worst part as I am sure anyone will know, is the waiting.

I finally had my meeting with HR in early February, accompanied by one of the company directors, who had taken an interest in my case.   At the meeting I learnt of their concerns and intention to offer me a new role, working fin house and from home, with flexible hours.   This would address many of the worries I had, but obviously would mean some adjustments.   Then started another wait to see if this would come to pass.  The email finally came today, just as I was starting to write this blog.  Now I have to consider a fresh start and new challenges, but at least I am still here to tell the tale 😊.

REY 17/02/2022

Sunday, 28 November 2021

Kata and CBT.


I'm currently undertaking an online course in Cognitive Behavioural Therapy to help me unravel the Gordian knot described in "Suicidal thoughts".  Part of this is to practice three sets of techniques each day to help with mindfulness and relaxation.  Basically you have:
  • Awareness, going through each part of your body in turn to explore what you can feel
  • Tensioning, tensing and relaxing muscles to help relieve tension
  • Breathing, feeling each breath to bring you into the now and focus on the present
This reminds me of a lot of the techniques I have learnt through Karate, such as the relaxation and cardio slow kata learnt with Robey Jenkins, the tensioning in Sanchin from PJ Broomy and the breathing learnt from Noah Legel, in Tensho.


As a result, and due to my need to get back into deliberately practice every day, I decided to see whether I could combine the two.  So I perform Naihanchi Shodan, Sanchin and Tensho in sequence.  Naihanchi, I perform slowly, paying attention to how my body moves and feels.  Sanchin, I am currently experimenting with tensioning on 1 rep in 2 and 1 rep in three for the whole body and relaxing in between.  In Tensho, it is a case of using the breathing much as is done in Mokuso, to empty the mind and come into the present.




The two videos shown are from the last couple of days, one with the 1 in 2 Sanchin, the other with the 1 in 3 Sanchin.  Very much a work in progress, but ironic that I chose without thinking the three kata labelled as fundamental kata to Karate by Miyagi Chojun.  I didn't even think about that until it was pointed out by PJ Broomy.  

Will document how it goes in a later blog.